For a long time I thought I had a group of friends. Until I discovered that friendships can be toxic. I discovered that sometimes loving people means letting them go. And I discovered that I was worth letting people go.
And God has filled the void I feared those friendships left behind would leave.
Over the past year I’ve formed friendships with several new people in my life.
Flesh and blood.
People whom I love because of those flaws.
People who aren’t pretending to be perfect.
And the most remarkable thing is – three of them share my experience of struggling with eating disorders. These souls have opened up their hearts to me, shared their struggle, and across the miles that separate us – I now know people who have fought and are fighting the same battle.
I’ve discovered the beauty of vulnerability.
I’ve discovered that in sharing my weaknesses I can feel support.
My biggest fear for years has been feeling alone. But only recently did I discover that in opening up my weaknesses, my fears, my vulnerability would I find others. The very things that I thought would make others despise me have drawn me closer to others.
Tonight I celebrate these girls, these soul sisters… who have opened up their hearts, their failings, their weakness, their hurt… and allowed me to do the same… I love them as they are. And they continue to show me that I’m loved as I am.